Tiny socks on polished floor.
MarĂa stands in the doorway with her stuffed rabbit tucked under her arm, her dark eyes fixed on you like sheâs holding a fragile glass of understanding. She doesnât speak, not with her mouth, not with her voice, but the way her fingers tighten around the rabbitâs ear says she knows something is wrong. You force a smile anyway, because youâve gotten good at smiling through storms.
You crouch so youâre at her level, and your knees pop with a sound that feels too loud for a house that worships silence. âHey, Estrellita,â you whisper, using the nickname she secretly allowed you to earn over months of midnight nightmares and breakfast routines. âDo you want to help me with something special tonight?â Her eyes flicker, and you can tell sheâs listening the way she always listens, with her whole body.
You point down the hall toward the kitchen. âWeâre going to make a Christmas dinner. Just a small one.â You keep your voice light, like you arenât packing your life into fabric and zippers. âAnd I need my best helper.â
MarĂa doesnât nod. She doesnât smile. But she steps forward, and her small hand slips into yours, warm and certain, and for a second you almost hate Marcello for thinking any amount of money can replace what that gesture means.
In the kitchen, Carmen watches you with her arms crossed, pretending sheâs annoyed when her eyes are actually wet. âNo extravagant,â she reminds you, repeating Marcelloâs words like sheâs reciting the rules of a game you both know is rigged. Still, she opens cupboards you didnât even know existed, sliding out ingredients as if sheâs been waiting for someone to bring warmth back into this house.
You and MarĂa start with what you know will comfort her. Simple things, familiar things, the kind of meal that says: Iâm not leaving you alone with strangers tonight. You teach her to sprinkle cinnamon into hot chocolate, and she does it with the seriousness of a tiny scientist handling rare dust. When you hand her a cookie cutter shaped like a star, she presses it into the dough and watches the imprint appear like magic, her breath catching as if she canât believe good things can still happen.
You glance at the clock, and each tick feels like a thief. Every minute is a step closer to the morning when youâll be gone.
Carmen moves around you, quietly efficient, but every so often she stops and looks at MarĂa like sheâs seeing something sheâs tried not to feel for a year. âThe child⊠she hasnât touched the cookie dough since the accident,â Carmen murmurs, almost to herself. âNot once.â She clears her throat and turns toward the stove like she didnât just drop a confession in your hands.
You swallow hard, because you can feel hope trying to rise, and hope is dangerous when youâre about to lose everything.
Later, you help MarĂa set a small table near the tall windows where the city lights look like fallen stars. You donât use the formal dining room, because the formal dining room feels like a museum for pain. Instead, you choose a corner that feels human, and you drape a simple cloth over the table, smoothing wrinkles with your palm like you can smooth the year, too.
When Marcello finally appears, the air changes the way it changes when a powerful man enters a room and expects the world to adjust. Heâs in another flawless suit, but the suit canât hide the tiredness in his shoulders or the way his eyes hesitate when they land on the table youâve set. For a second, he looks like a man who walked into the wrong house.
He stops when he sees MarĂa in her little sweater, standing by the table with flour on her fingertips. The child doesnât run to him. She doesnât speak. But she doesnât retreat either, and in this house, that counts as a miracle.
Marcelloâs gaze slides to you, sharp as a paper cut. âThis is what you wanted?â he asks, like heâs bracing for disappointment.
You keep your chin up. âThis is what she deserves,â you answer, and you donât add: and what you deserve too, even if youâve forgotten.
He sits. MarĂa sits. You sit. And for a moment the three of you look like a family someone paused in the middle of becoming.
Dinner begins cautiously, like approaching a dog thatâs been kicked too many times. Carmen brings out the food, and you serve MarĂa first because you always do. Marcello watches the ritual as if itâs foreign, as if heâs never realized love is mostly repetition, mostly showing up in small ways until the small ways become a bridge.
MarĂa eats a few bites and keeps glancing at you. Not fearful, not panicked, just⊠tracking you, like sheâs making sure you donât evaporate.
Marcello clears his throat. âThe specialist will be here after New Year,â he says, unable to stop being a man who thinks planning equals protection. âShe has a strong record. Weâll do this properly.â
Your fork pauses mid-air. You donât want to ruin the fragile peace, but you also canât let the lie sit comfortably. âProperly,â you repeat softly. âDoes that mean⊠with her father in the room? Or with her father behind a desk?â
His jaw tightens. âYouâre still angry.â